A childhood spent in Hollywood, a father who was beloved by the entertainment elite and all the shiny things money can buy; Carol Sorkin Hunter’s life should have been a fairy tale. Shadows lurked behind; a near fatal electrocution at eight years old, her mother’s Mafia brothers, and a sinister sexual experience triggered a personal journey. Carol’s life spun out of control, she tried to slow it down with a sugar addiction. Spanning from World War Two to the attack on the Twin Towers, Hunter experienced two failed marriages, and at a time when it wasn’t common practice to divorce, she was granted a new trial after secretly tape recording her father-in-law admitting his son was a bigamist. The divorce settlement allowed her to live and paint in Rome, she returned home to Los Angeles, married again and gave birth to twin daughters. Her second marriage- to a bi-polar husband- became volatile and she once again divorced. As her confidence plummeted, her hopelessness grew. Poverty threatened her very existence. From this low point in her life, Carol heard words that triggered her journey toward self-worth, the fulfillment of her talents, and by Divine Accident, her soul mate.
I fought a sugar addiction throughout my life. It could have been alcohol, pills, gambling a number of compulsive traits . In order to survive and begin to put my life in order I had to change my everyday existence . I struggled with a food addition throughout my life. It doesn't matter the addiction it is cunning, manipulative and deadly. Our family recently lost two young nephews before they were forty due to addictions . I personally had to find answers to survive. The best one was to not test myself . I knew from experience "Just one cookie" would never work for me. You can't give a smoker one cigarette and say you are healed. It takes time, persistence courage and inner determination. I stayed away from sugar 1440 minutes years ago and this March it has been for 42 years without real sugar. Hallelujah !!! Our
The greatest challenge in life is discovering who you are. The second greatest challenge is being happy with what you find! As I have written I was born into the Jewish faith and then after years of searching I discovered "Science Of Mind" My heart, ears and mind were captured as I found I could do and be anything I wanted. It was up to me and my God to figure out the next steps. When I wrote my desires down on paper and looked at them acting and feeling as if they would manifest in my life. Would I really find love, happiness and joy? Yes, I did may you also be blessed.
Prayers are important in sustaining our inner comfort and peace. When we pray effectively there is no reason to not get the perfect answer. Everyday brings challenges and finding answers to the challenges helps us become more centered , more spiritual and aware of a power in the Universe that is there to comfort and guide us. I do not question the answers but, remain strong , confident and secure. I trust you find your perfect results!
There is a power in the Universe and it is available for you anytime, anywhere , it is good and it responds to the level of your belief. Let go of any anger, disappointment and hurt allowing your mind to contemplate greater strength, happiness and success. It took me a long time to begin to feel worthy of God's love ,but when I finally made the connection to the power it never ceased. May the force be with you !!!
Oh how sad. Once you have experienced a sexual episode in your life and manipulated at 7 and 10 the images are etched in your mind and you feel violated , ashamed and silent. I was about 18 and remained silent for many years. I would eat and grow larger because I did not want to be touched. Hopefully, this documentary will bring more light into these tragic events. Pray for the survivors.
I feel that in order to heal, it starts first in the Mind. I visualize the healing knowing that the body begins the healing immediately . Every second that one allows it to perform without a moment of doubt it does and in my case it has been amazing. One day I was working on a project with a hot glue gun and the hot glue squirted out on my hand, the next second my thought was, "God doesn't burn" I rapidly pulled the glue off and saw a red palm. On other occasions , a small amount has burned me I said "ouch"; the healing lasted for weeks. I kept dwelling on it.
At 35, I was told to" get my life in order". I share this remarkable miracle because I am no different than you! To this day I cannot explain my miracle, only that I believed , trusted and prayed with all my faith and heart. My faith is Unshakeable and has carried me this far , I am beyond grateful !. I wrote my memoir to contribute my experiences may theylovingly guide you. Amen
Wisdom , the ability to think and act using knowledge, experience and common sense. After years of trial and error, I finally had to learn what balance, proportion and preparation meant. Tonight the Oscars are on and many moons ago I was there! Only by my finding wisdom and using it effectively I had reached one of my pinnacles of success. Never, ever give up. Today is a new and wonderful day...Savor it... Please take advantage of a free book promotion this week.
I do not test myself. Through the years I know my weaknesses and my strengths . To this day I remain focused, I plan ahead, I use tools available like scales, new seasonings, utensils. Faith and prayer are part of my daily routine , smiling and contentment count . It is a far more peaceful existence now not having to think about weight and sizes .
There are three questions one asks before you want a demonstration. 1. "Is it for good "? 2. "Will it hurt anyone"? 3. "Are you taking something that doesn't belong to you"? The Energy in the Universe is powerful, loving and miraculous.Pray and release and await the magnificent demonstrations Blessings
Something magical happened when I wrote on my "I Desire An Image " card. There it was on a little card my three desires. Peace of Mind, A Slim and gorgeous body and a beautiful marriage. At the time I had none of these desires, perhaps I never did. I believed and wanted it to manifest; almost willing it to happen. It took more than wishing it took time, patience and I believe magic.
I wired myself so I could record the truth about our divorce. Little did I know years ago It was unusual to play tapes in the court room . When I found out that my husband was a bigamist that was the last straw . At long last I was in the drivers seat and I was not going to be controlled anymore.
I loved a fruit called "Chemoya" it is from Mexico and has the flavor seven fruits, enhanced with a custard like consistency. Imagine my excitement when I found one in the store. I carefully took the pit and planted it in a pot filled with dirt. I watered it religiously every week and all I saw was dirt. I would not give up even after seven months of nurturing it was dirt but, the faith that it would grow was unshakable. I envisioned it growing and to my delight and joy a little green spout appeared. I never gave up!!!
Not in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be living in Michigan. I imagined it to be like "Greenfield Village", what a surprise I got. My earlier life was filled with going to the "Cannes Film Festival", Oscar night where I gave up my seat to John Travolta. Premiers like "Star Wars" It was a fantasy world and yet I found it so lonely . My father never was home with us on "New Year's Eve. He was being flown to five separate parties. Hollywood has changed so much that for me it becomes a place to visit ...not live there.
When being strong is the only thing left you find out how strong you really are. Having had the privilege of owning beautiful cars, I was now left without any car. A bike and the girl's little red wagon became my only transportation. I had to remain focused and find my inner strength. I didn't want to waste my energy on being sad and depressed . I pushed every day to work hard until I could afford a car and I did.
One day is 1440 minutes. I was fixing some lights on the tree. It was filled with beautiful lights and in an instant the plug came out and the tree went dark. We are approaching a new year and I cannot emphasis the importance of living right now in the moment. Learning to cherish each minute as one never knows when the plug is pulled. I know we are divinely, guided, guarded and protected always, but love yourself and share your greatness "Just for Today"
Loved the movie "Green Book". It was so reminiscent of my childhood; my mafia uncles and the large big band orchestras. In Hollywood you were judged how great a musician you were and not by your DNA. I remember seeing a young, Sammy Davis Jr. dancing with his uncles the "Will Mastin" trio st Ciro's on Sunset Boulevard. My uncles would have large wads of cash , what was a credit card?
To look at me today you would never realize I had an addiction. It has now been over forty-one years without real sugar. I was such an addict that I ate all 31 "Baskin Robbins Flavors "in one sitting and I was still hungry .That really scared me because with an addiction there is never enough. It doesn't matter drugs, gambling ,alcohol the addiction is cunning and manipulative I had to be stronger than the urge to give in and I did one day at a time.
P=Purposely ,R=Receiving , A=answers, Y=you, E=earnestly , R=request. When I asked the Universe what prayer was...this was the answer I received. There is great power in words and I believe the way they are said can bring about magnificent healing. a=
I have been so blessed and I am very grateful. This journey hasn't always been easy yet somehow I have experienced magnificent miracles and I am no different than you . These are some of the lessons I have learned on the path. I lovingly share them.
My whole life would have been different had I delayed my departure from Rome. I did lithography and etched the stone .I sent one of the ten to "Associated American Artists" in New York. I waited and waited for weeks and then months to hear something from them. I didn't want to wait any longer so I packed up everything and flew home. I gave up waiting .. After a few weeks back in California I heard from "Associated American Artist" they wanted to buy an edition of 100 , which ultimately were sold around the world.
What Mary Austin and Freddy Mercury had was not unlike my life with Alan, but she would not marry a bi-sexual man and I did !! Bi-sexual men have a charisma and devotion that is magical and controlling. I personally loved the movie , the music and the acting. I felt Mary's dilemma in loving Freddy Mercury ,aka "Queen". I was so grateful that Alan did not get Aids because he certainly frequented the bath houses often.
Just saw the movie, " A Star is Born" and it was great. Bradley Cooper plays an alcoholic . He eventually goes to AA meetings, it brought back profound memories of all the days and months I attended meetings. I went to help my addiction which was food. I had a sponsor and the "Big Book. Today marks over 40 years of abstinence from sugar. "One day at a time"
It is amazing to me today, how I tolerated the abuse and torment that was my marriage to Charles. My self esteem was so low and I felt defeated . I had to find another way to cope with my life...I found answers and success and this is my story , how I accomplished this...
The powerful ways people exhibit their hatred toward one another is unacceptable. The sound and vibrations the word incites brings sadness and despair . I wrote the following acronyms because I believe words carry a vibratory energy..
Have you ever heard the creepy music of the Theremin? It has been used in many Hollywood Movies such as "Spellbound, The Lost Weekend , The Day The Earth Stood Still" and many other films. It is perfect for Halloween . It is done with hand motions , vibrations and it creates sounds.
Growing up in California during World War 2 was frightening. Today, when I pick up my grandees from high school and hear about the lock-downs that is more than alarming. I am sure shortly the schools will be installing Metal Detectors and perhaps it has sadly become necessary.
To me, there are no strangers. I am quite comfortable meeting people and telling them about their dreams and defeats. People have broken down in tears or laughter, but there is a very fine line that I will not cross. The decisions that one has to make will be done by them. I will not make important life decisions , I will not frighten or manipulate individuals. That is not my purpose.
I don't ever question that God hears and answers our prayers. They are not always the way we imagine and want them to be answered. Accept it or not I believe that prayers are answered for our highest good. I further believe that we are here to learn and to teach and when the lessons are completed we move on...
It was living a nightmare seeing my life's decisions manifest in my children's lives. Jenny suffered for years and I feel for any parent having to deal with the situation. Panic disorder is debilitating and life altering. Jenny taught me through her courage and fortitude to forge ahead and never give up!
As I reflect back to the event that was pivotal to my life, it remains a beautiful demonstration of faith and fortitude. Stepping on the bag that held this validation of truth was triumphant . Yes, I was on the path and it felt glorious. I pray miraculous demonstrations for you .
I learned the lessons from my uncles very well. "Secrecy counted and Connections worked. That is why I deliberately withheld any information about being locked in a room and forced to watch a bizarre sex act . With their friends like, Bugsy Siegel, Mickey Cohen I swore myself to secrecy. For 4 years I didn't tell a soul.
It is so relevant today and I relate to exactly the same emotions as Dr. Ford. I kept silent for 4 years. I did not want to share for one reason , I had Mafia uncles and one knows he could have been taken out, very easily. That would bring more guilt and fear. I kept my secret going for years. I remember the event distinctly although it has been over sixty years.
It is quite pertinent today, with the "he said, she said". I will share my thoughts and opinion. I don't care if it was 35 years ago or 67 years ago. I personally remember with great clarity when I was only 18 and was traumatized. I did not talk to anyone about it for 4 years. Anyone coming forth with a secret like this has been living with it for over 35 years. I understand so well the conflict.
Everyday we are faced with challenges that can be mind changing. We have choices to make , hold on tight or give in. It can take great stamina , courage and fortitude to remain calm, stable and successful. I find that it much easier to grin and bear a situation rather than giving in or giving up. These are often lessons that are put in our path to educate and guide us. May Divine guidance keep us protected .
After being locked in a room and forced to watch two people having sex, I know that people are basically kind and good. Horrific events caused by one evil human doesn't mean most men will act this way. How we react is so important. I had to learn not to overreact but, to take logical action. Look around today and see all the wonderful first responders helping out with "Hurricane Florence" People are basically good.
It is difficult today to remember my life without decent transportation. I had legs and I had a bike. My mode of transportation with the twins was their red wagon. We made it work with laughter, courage, strength and faith.. At the time faith was my fuel and my love of God was unshakeable
Through a lot of pain and suffering I personally found a better way to live and think. I have given a brief description on the following pages. All I can share is that it worked and it is still working. I find being grateful and appreciative of our short time on this planet that we should honor and respect it as well as our bodies.
I think back to the days when I was hurting and struggling to find a better life. It had to get better, raising twin daughters , balancing work, cleaning , shopping and compulsive eating. On top of all this I had a weight problem. It took unshakeable faith to turn my life around.
I was able "just for today" to celebrate over 40 years of no real sugar in my life. I did it 1440 minutes a day. I share my downfalls and triumphs in my memoir. It worked for me and I pray in the event of any addiction that it will work for you. It requires faith, courage and prayer. In our own family within the past year we have lost 2 young nephews to addictions.
I am sharing the Acronyms that came from the Universe . Because there is such power in the word and how it is spoken, creates a vibration. I would often wonder why saying certain words brought about great anger or love. Here are some of the examples.
In times of stress it is easy to forget that we are supported, surrounded and immersed in an energy that loves and sustains us. Remaining calm and centered is not always easy when your life is being bombarded from all sides, under those circumstances I pray and it always works out in Divine Right Action...
The last book promotion was such a great success I am running it again. Please take advantage and read about real miracles that can change and transform your life. A Divine Accident offers simple steps to guide you. I wrote my memoir to share the practical use of this wonderful energy in the Universe to help you!!
HERO, today with the death of Senator John McCain we are honoring a real hero. I felt the words of a hero were: Heartfelt Efforts Reacting Outstandingly. It seem appropriate in describing a real hero. Someone who reacted in an outstanding way regardless of the danger. God Bless you John McCain. !!!
Through the years I have been healed over and over again. I am no different than you, but I have unshakable faith that sustains and maintains me. I share my miracles throughout my memoir to provide a roadmap to success. May you embody the marvelous healing energy available to us.
I know that it is like to lose a great talent. We only notice when the music stops, but in this case...it will continue on and on. Aretha was born gifted and shared her talent abundantly. She was a wonderful pianist and her voice was perfection. My father played the saxophone beyond compare, he was the Maestro, so in homage to Aretha and all the magical musicians , Thank You ...Encore, Encore !!!
I was supposed to be a grown up woman that did not have to resort to food to find comfort. I had found out painfully that it did not work for me. I wasn't an alcoholic , gambler or junkie I was addicted to food. But, I found a better way to cope and that was through prayer and how I turned my life around.
I do not care what you are praying for, but I believe there are some ways to demonstrate specifically , precise and perfectly. Ask yourself these three questions. Is it for good?. Will it hurt someone and are you taking something that doesn't belong to you?
I have come to realize that the Universe is non-judgmental , perfect and exquisitely effective. Therefore, we know that when we pray , our prayers shall be answered regardless of race, color or creed. I firmly believe this as I have experienced miraculous results.
We try to plan out our lives and it doesn't always come out the way we planned it. You have to be prepared and I am very impulsive ; therefore many of my own personal decisions were unwise. The most important lesson I learned was to make a blueprint and be very specific, then let the wonderful energy in the Universe make it manifest.
I was still trying to understand a husband who says, "he loves you and them explodes with anger the next minute. I thought maybe that is what husbands do. As a wife I was supposed to accept and be subservient I felt like a fool and embarrassed , this was my second failed marriage and I was trapped.
Even today, I go through challenges as I am sure you do also. But, my faith remains unshakeable even under the most major trials. As long as we are here on this planet, continue to face your battles with courage, resolve and bravery. The Universe is loving, powerful and in command . Do not ever give up.!!!
Ian proposed to me at the "London Chop House" in Detroit , Michigan. I was ecstatic, thrilled beyond my dreams. This was October and we planned to marry around Christmas. I flew back to California and Ian left for Washington. And, then I did not hear from him for days. Never calling to see how I was doing. I could not believe our joy lasted for only twelve hours.
No one might believe me, that I was emotionally and physically abused. At the time there were no "Haven" refuges for women to go to. I did my best to keep the girls and I safe. As proof that Charles had another side I saved the torn clothes and I wouldn't patch the wall when he threw things at me.
Words have so much power. There is a vibration that takes place. There is only one letter difference between can and can't. I used to live in a worried state ,money for rent, food, clothing, medical et al. On this path, have learned about faith , unconditional love and kindness. Send out peaceful loving vibrations.
My mind and body had taken enough abuse, this time I was taking control. For the first time in my life, I was embarking on a new and exciting path. My faith in God was unshakable and I began to love myself !!!
I couldn't continue on my path of destruction . It was killing me . I had to find the strength , courage and desire to change. Knowing my past failures and yes, triumphs I was about to embark on a new journey...a planned path for success. I could not question it, I had to make it happen. I devised a plan , one that I still follow today.
After my miserable marriage to Alan, I slowly allowed myself to find love, companionship and trust. I thought my judgment had improved, how wrong I was! Because I was impulsive and a sucker for compassion I once again tried to make it work.
I can still remember the electricity going through my whole body. It must have opened up some channels in my brain, because I have become quite clairvoyant . Science has proven some of this be valid. And I can certainly vouch for it..."There are no strangers"!!!
Years ago, Bi-polar was not a word one heard much about. I was not able to figure out the strange behavior that would control Charles. I never knew what he might throw at me , or attack me with. Then .a little while later he could not do enough for me. It was a living nightmare.
There seems to be a common thread that runs through children that have been molested and obesity. We are humiliated and shamed into a life of protection from the monsters. For many, like myself it became mandatory to fill myself up with food as a barrier from pain. .
After two failed marriages I was willing to try again . Yes, I still believed in magic, music and miracles. At 45 years old I found the love of my life. I know that there is a Divine Pattern and when we follow it, it demonstrates to the level of our belief.
I use this method of healing to stay focused. It is so helpful that I lovingly share it. It is at the end of my memoir and I thought it was appropriate to include. I live by this. I know it works and makes you and others feel great about themselves.
I did not often listen to my Mother, but this time I did. "Carol, give the poor man a chance.." Ian, had hurt me and I had been ripped apart and psychologically dismantled by the men in my life. But, I was armed with my restored self-respect. This time I listened and this is what happened.
It truly was a wedding that was fit for a princess. but I wasn't a princess and Alan wasn't a prince. From the moment I said , "I do" I was done. I gave Alan permission to control my life. And he did ,. from what to wear to how much salt I was using on my food. But, boy oh boy it was a magnificent wedding !!!
Surviving an electrocution at eight years old, was a miracle. Having a mass and hemorrhaging at thirty-four years old and having it dissolve was so magnificent that I never forget the dynamic healing power in the Universe . A Divine Accident, is my story and I lovingly share it.
It was about one-hundred years ago when my father boarded the London Tube and went to work. He was so young, yet so talented. He started at the" Savoy Hotel" in London and ended up at the "Beverly Hills Hotel" in California . It is an amazing act to follow. My early life was story-book magic.
I had no idea I was being controlled by Alan. My self-esteem had been crushed by my past. I welcomed the attention and consideration that Alan showed me and slowly he became my Svengali influencing every thing I did. My only voice was in my paintings.
It is difficult to try to figure out someone else's bizarre behavior when visibly they appear to be normal. Such was my marriage to Charles. He became a cruel and wicked man one moment and kind and loving the next. I was terrified to stay with him .
The moment you change your thinking to healing from hurting the energy begins to respond. It is as effortless as you make it. Some days were unbearable and other days were even worse, but I never gave up or even allowed myself the thought of giving up. All I can share is that it works, perfectly, silently and brilliantly.
P=purposely -R=receiving -A=answers -Y=you-E=earnestly - R=request. Please read the following acronyms that were sent to me in prayer !!!
When my father died suddenly, I stopped eating for three days. I didn't think that his death would affect me so. At times like this the house is filled with food, friends and family. For someone addicted to sweets, it was so powerful to find NO comfort in food. For me it was a useless diversion. I craved solitude .
Yes, the Law of Attraction is real, powerful and useful. I was able to demonstrate a new life, a wonderful husband and found it works finding the perfect home. I have illuminated various demonstration in the following chapters. It is a powerful tool and may you have great success !
My foolishness caused me to re-tear my rotator cuff. I did not want to go through the long arduous healing again in a sling. It was months before I could use my arm, so when I discovered a doctor in New York, who had a different healing technique I booked an appointment on September 11th , the rest is History.
At long last I found the courage I needed to survive. When I had to go to court , I was able to reverse the court's decision and was rewarded handsomely . In this Chapter I was starting to create a new path. I was still fragile , but strengthening my backbone.
Months after my horrible experience with my blind date, I did not want to live. I started to plan my extinction ,but gratefully my curiosity took precedence . I wanted justification and I was willing to fight for it.
Today, I look in the garage and see my beautiful black Jaguar car and can think back to the time when I had no transportation It seems unbelievable to me that I was raising twin daughters and living without real transportation. I literally had to put my feet on a bike and petal to work. Through faith and prayer , my life slowly turned around.
It takes planning to prepare to binge. I would have to make sure that I was alone. I would drive to the store to buy my favorite items. Peanuts, potato chips, ice cream , cookies and on and on. I would like to sit and read or watch a special show with all my props around me. Yes, it took planning and thank God I do not make those plans anymore. I explain in the book how I was able to succeed..
In my early years the only thing I understood was: "don't ask questions"! No one would answer them . Today, with the help of Google and Facebook you can find out just about anything. But, even today connections count. It still amazes me how little my uncles knew ,but more important was, "Who they knew"
I look in the mirror today and think back to the awful days that the mirror was my demon. We give so much power to the image in the mirror. Sweets was my Novocain. They soothed, comforted and sustained me through ugly traumatic times.
I have learned to trust this power unconditionally. All I know is that it works. There have been so many miracles and I am no different than you. In this particular chapter I arrived at one of my miracles.
How amazing the mind and body are to remain resilient in times of stress and fear. I share with you finding my own inner strength and courage for whatever has manifested in my life...The power is there for you!
For the next five day ,"A Divine Accident" is available a free kindle, Thank you Amazon
Here I was all by myself and I was confronted with a diamond back snake guarding the front door. It was a dilemma I didn't want nor train for. I was doing my friend ,"Casey Cagney Thomas "a favor staying with her while her famous father Jimmy and her husband Jack were away on business.
With all this wonderful love in the air. I too, found my perfect soul mate. It is so easy to give up and accept what life has dealt you...but I so wanted a good marriage, a kind and considerate husband and father to our girls. I share my story for you, how my life changed after so much trauma.
No one knew what I had been through, I was so ashamed to talk about it. I have seen so many overweight people try to stuff the sexual incidents away. But, it doesn't work. Until you face and confront the issue , take back your pride and courage , the inner rage goes on unattended.
With so much love in the air it is hard to imagine having to let go of someone you loved so much. I had to release Ian in order to survive. Our love story was the culmination of a man's great indecision , if he couldn't make up his mind I had to do it.
Through the years , I watched my daughter and many other people suffer from panic attacks. Since then we have learned some valuable lessons. One is to desensitize a fear. I know one woman who had to ride an elevator fifty times up and down and it worked. She was able to ride an elevator without panicking .
I believe that Jenny's panic disorder started early on with her out of control father Charles. She told me that "she didn't want to go to school for fear that he would hurt me when I was alone."
I cannot emphasize enough the power in the words. I believe that the words have vibrations and it changes from can and can't from , won't to want . When I pray I fully expect a demonstration. My faith is unshakable !!!
I froze when I saw the Can-Can dancers. It was my secret, the one I locked up inside me for four years. And, there she was in her Can-Can outfit dancing around. She had no idea what seeing her did to me again. The perpetrators never do !!
My father was among the elite in Hollywood Society. It was a time when being Jewish had a stigma to it. After the war many holocaust victims slowly arrived in California, their arms marked with numbers.
I was the only one responsible for picking up a fork , a drink or a pill. Only me, I could go on blaming others and I never would have learned how to heal . I willingly share with you what steps I took to heal.
I began not to care how I looked , it became my camouflage to keep away admirers. When the repairman came to fix the gas leak ...
I have found that the majority of people that overeat had unwanted sexual abuse. We eat to make ourselves so unattractive that no one wants to be around or with us.
I had only my firm belief in a power greater than I . I could not see or touch it, but I felt it. Never before was I so assured in a perfect outcome of every situation in my life.
This was not how envisioned my life. All I did from dawn to dusk was work. I couldn't find contentment for some reason I was always tired and miserable.
Our dear nephew Brian will be 44 years old tomorrow . It is a miracle that Brian is still here , with everything my sweetheart has been through. Brian requires 24/7 care . My sister Sandra and Charles are also amazing, Brian lives at home with constant care.
I found it hard to believe how my life had changed. In Rome I had a gorgeous Lancia Aurelia like a Maserati; now I had only a bike and the girl's Radio Flyer red wagon.
I am including more of my acronyms. One of my favorites is HAPPY = Having a Perfectly Pleasant Yippee !!!
I found great power in the word. I questioned why certain words were formed the way they were. I started forming my own acronyms. Here are some of them...
Oh,my goodness, Jenny accidently let a skunk in the house and she did not know where it was?. This was a dilemma, because I was a woman who sold my wonderful player piano because a cockroach crawled into it! Now I had to deal with a real live skunk in the house !
How wonderful to be experiencing a guided tour of the Kennedy Library in Waltham, Massachusetts. I was honored to share with my family the painting of the "Crucifixion" which the library housed. Upon seeing all the treasures in the special rooms, I asked the curator, "what was Kennedy's most treasured item.?
When this beautiful letter arrived ,I was so puzzled . Once again Ian professing his love for me and yet, his actions did not fit the words. I read the letter over and over to try to understand what was this man was really thinking!
My father, Barney Sorkin never had a lesson yet,, at seventeen, the Savoy Hotel in London hired him to play saxophone in their orchestra . He went on to Hollywood becoming one of the most honored Maestros .
My sister Sandra and I flew to Morocco on a last minute trip. To start on our journey our tour guide did not show up for 2 days and when Henry showed up he was drunk! What an adventure this was going to be. ..
In a way it was a relief to know that Alan would not want to chase other women but what I didn't realize is that he wanted to control my life.
Uncle Moe and Uncle Jack were the families connection to Hollywood and syndicated crimes. My sister Sandra and I were in Uncle Jack's car when he rolled down the window and Uncle Moe leaned in and said "they got Bugsy" !!!
The thought of giving up was not part of my DNA. I couldn't do it. My mother at seventeen and a half came down with ,spinal meningitis and there were no anti-biotic then. They told my grandparents, "She would not make the night". Well, bless her she survived and I am here as her example of "never giving up.!!!
What a traumatic experience and the only thing I focused on was my faith. I had survived and electrocution and nearly drowned in a lake and now this! Under these circumstances I know my faith is unshakable.
Today, I do not recognize the city I grew up in.. Gone are the horse paths along Rodeo Drive and the rows of orange trees especially fragrant in the valley. The Beverly Wilshire still stands and is beautiful.. It was where "Pretty Woman" was filmed.
When your beautiful daughter is pregnant with her first child and our first grandchild ,to hear that the baby has a problem is not welcome news. It was her "inner light", I said it and believed it. This is how one heals.
Even now as a grown woman, I cringe when I recall the event that changed my life. Being locked in a room and having to experience a sex act with two adults . He pulled up a chair right by the bed, proceeded having sex while the monster talked to me. He would call me constantly and I would hang up . This went on for four years
My mother was quite a character. The only woman I know who put on a bathing suit and shower cap to defrost the freezer. Yes, she would answer to "Placenta" .
I wrote this book because I have experienced great despair and magnificent healings. I am no different than anyone else, but my faith is unshakable. We are tested at various times in our lives, therefore when I found real solutions and comfort, I felt compelled to share it...
In the city of Fez , I was approached in the Medea by a man that offered me 500 camels to stay in Morocco...So whenever I have to, I remind Ian of what I gave up for Him !!! Tempting as it was , now where would I put 500 camels???
Here I was in a room with a realize I barely know him. I felt it wasn't a risk it was destiny and I wanted to experience it with all my heart...
I cannot take a taste of real sugar. Not one little bit. Too often I tried to test myself only to fail. It was a life lesson for me. I did not taste my wedding cake, what could be sweeter than that?. An alcoholic cannot take one sip, a smoker cannot take one puff. I know only to well it is a mind trigger that plays tricks on you...It has been over 40years without real sugar...I did it 1440 minutes at a time...
I need to share my story with those who are experiencing pain and disappointment. I have experienced miracles and demonstrations . Do not give up or give in because there is a power and energy eager to assist you on your journey. Let me tell you how it worked for me...
This letter was supposed to arrive before Ian came to California but, Ian arrived first. It was written with such thoughtful words but it was baffling to me...once again he was non-committal and I wasn't sure I wanted to subject myself to him once again.
Being in love with Ian was far more beautiful and electrifying than anything I had ever fantasized about. I was so excited to prepare for my trip to Michigan ! I couldn't believe this was all happening to me. Literally a dream coming true !
I had two failed marriages and I still wanted to experience a loving, gentle and reciprocal marriage . How would I go about it? I had to have a new design for living, so I set about creating a blueprint for happiness. On the path I discovered how to achieve it...
Granted I have been kissed many times ...but when Ian kissed me in the hall of the hotel , it was magic. I was sleeping beauty awakened by a prince. Wow... terrific love story and true !!!
Little did I realize forty-one years ago, I would not have real sugar in my life. I did it one moment at a time. I share my story because I am no different than you...I loved sweets , deserts, ice cream and the thought of not having it was overwhelming. But as of today, it has been forty-one years sugar-free...I am free!!!
I found using the power of words brought about miraculous healing. I do not wear glasses today and I did for years . I never had eye correction , God's power and faith I feel are responsible. I look forward to sharing my amazing journey with you !
When I found myself in rough and hard times, the only thing I could count on was my faith. So often one prays and prays and nothing happens, you wake up to the same dilemma . I began to find a greater way to heal.
What a joy to find a way to live my life with out the crazy drama that I had been through. It is such a blessing to know that I am "Divinely , Guided, Guarded and protected . I share my story knowing that you can demonstrate whatever you want.
Life was so make believe them. I would go to the studios as a little girl and watch magic appear from nowhere . The movies still do that ...you can disappear into someone else's life temporarily...
I dutifully wrote on my miracle card, "I desired an Image". I then proceeded to write on a paper all the wonderful attributes I was searching for in a mate. I wrote and wrote and then I went back and read it and realized, I did not know anyone at the time who fit many of the qualifications. Nobody , not one.
I was engaged for 12 hours and then Ian and I parted ways returning to our destinations and I didn't hear from him ! How could this be...he proposed and I accepted..
We often think, how bad can it get and it gets worse. That is when one has a choice to sink or swim. You do not realize how much inner strength and courage you possess until you have to. Finding a greater core within yourself is a dynamic example of faith.
With the Oscars show about ready to begin, it brings me back each year to the unbelievable experiences I had. Every night my father mingled with the Hollywood crowd. I was treated to seeing the shows in the afternoon during rehearsals. It was glamour, glitz and gaudy.
I have found that three principles are found in healing . Lesson one...is it for good? Lesson two...will it hurt anyone? And Lesson three ...are you taking something that doesn't belong to you? A Divine Accident has been an example of great demonstrations.
I was constantly being taunted by the monster for over four years. He was not capable of being rehabilitated . I did not know where or to whom to confide in. It was my secret and it was destroying me.
My first wedding in the Beverly Hills Hotel , Crystal Room was beyond spectacular. Too bad the marriage wasn't. My second husband and I eloped and our witnesses were the secretary of the church and the handyman.
I couldn't stop...My eating was out of control. No matter how many meetings I went to, I was hooked. Food was my console. my friend , by compulsion. I had to find a way to quit the madness, it was going to do me in.
I called him "Uncle Moe", but the world called him one of the "major gambling figures in syndicated crimes" Gus Russo, Supermob. If my Uncle had known what the monster did to his niece in Chapter 8, he would have had him killed.
Having experienced electricity shooting through my small body was terrifying. I do believe it opened up channels in my head allowing me to be psychic and clairvoyant. To me there are no strangers, but it took me a while to realize the gift and the responsibility.
I was totally unaware that Alan was slowly manipulating me. He began to take control of my life, what I ate, what I wore , what I said. He called it "love" ,it was madness.
I had a plan , I would put it into action. I knew it required change ,attitude and perseverance. I was willing to do whatever it took to change my life. Wanting a better future for me and my children, meant great determination and effort.
I always like things to happen right away. It has taken me years to adjust to events taking time. My faith has opened my awareness of the gifts we receive on the journey of enlightenment .
I would experience mood changes in Charles in a split second He would change into a beast throwing whatever was in his hand at me. Words like Prozac or Clonopin were not available , but living with someone whose behavior can change in moments is horrific.
My life had to change, I was miserable, stressed, tired and financially pathetic. I was all alone on this journey ...
In Chapter 13, I was presented with a dilemma , I was told to put my life in order due to an unexplainable mass. I had 18 month old twins and I wanted to be there to raise them. Prayer was the only thing I could count on...
After living in Rome, owning a gorgeous Lancia auto, attending the "Cannes Film Festival " being driven in gorgeous limousines. I found myself raising twin daughters without any transportation except a bike and the girls "Little Red Wagon"
I have had the honor of experiencing great courage and fortitude. The brave people mentioned in this chapter are amazing. My beautiful nephew Brian is one of them. He is now going on 44 years of age and has caretakers 24/7 but, has flown to Michigan . He is special and never, never ,ever gives up!!!
Pay attention to what you say, I have learned there is great power in the words. I do not give energy to negative darkness. The body begins to heal instantly. It only knows to heal and will respond .
Today, I keep hearing "Just say no". Well it didn't work for me...I was locked in a room with the monster and his playmate. He pulled up a chair right by the bed and said" this could be us".
My sister and I had the most memorable trip to Morocco. Our guide was drunk and didn't show up for 3 days. I was given a cane mysteriously from a Holy Man and it certainly was magical.
When one of our twins walked in on Charles with his hands on my throat , I couldn't breath and I never wanted her to see that ever again. The incident caused Jenny to suffer panic attacks . Chapter 13
I have great empathy for anyone who has endured a non-consensual incident . I kept silent for four years and tried to practically destroy my-self. I don't care how old you are today, you never forget. I wrote my memoir to share how I began to heal.
When Lisa returned home from her from her ultra sound on their 3month embryo . There was a problem . She said, "there was a shadow near the heart." My first thought was it was her "Inner Light" . it presented a dilemma .
Like an alcoholic, I could not take one sip , one taste not one ! bite . I have learned not to test myself. It has been over 40 years without real sugar. You can do it . I know whatever struggle you are going through .
I experienced the most humbling act of kindness when the portiere who cleaned the apartments in Rome, gave me a going away party. I had sketched her holding her son "Generino" and sent it to Associated American Artists. Maria and her hunchback husband took the beds out of their dining room where they slept and carried in a table for my going away party. Gratzi, Gratzi for memories.
I should have trusted my psychic ability and backed away from Charles. Little did I know behind the fragile façade was a very mixed up man. He accepted me as I was, which was delightful...and after we married, he became an abuser. Chapter 12 A Divine Accident
Finally I was able to realize that I had a mind and I could use it. How often we feel useless and misunderstood, but something inside kept telling me I could survive and God would guide and sustain me. My faith is unshakable and under the worst of times...being told at 34 to put my life in order; my only transportation was a bike and a wagon.
How fortunate I was to be able to have a special meeting with the famous "Dr. Joseph Murphy" , who wrote "The Power of Your Unconscious Mind". We met, we talked and he told me just look into the mirror and proclaim that I was "a child of God". Those words were going to cure me. I went home so sad and disappointed , I gained two pounds every week after that.!!!
My journey in Rome was not as I expected. I was left to maneuver on my own , did not speak Italian at the time. Mama Mia it was not va bene !!!
I accepted the challenge . I thought I could change him. How young and innocent I was , he loved a man's body and I wasn't a man.!!!!
My uncles were raised knowing that "connections counted and secrecy worked" I was always told nothing important for fear of disclosure. This worked very well later when I had my awful encounter with the monster!
How amazing to hear my father playing his saxophone with the rest of the band. I often thought they might have used this on the series "Downton Abbey " as it was recorded in 1927 , London. You can also hear it by going to Amazon and look for Barney Sorkin Let me know , thanks
My Heritage, and growing up in California among the rich and famous.
Click Follow to receive emails when this author adds content on Bublish