The nightly terror is real. And so are the words...
Shhhh ... this is our little secret ... don t tell anyone.
On the outside, Lori Golden had a perfect childhood. A perfect family. A perfect upbringing. What Lori really had was a perfect house of lies. To the outside ... and within the confines of the walls.
The sexual abuse that started at the age of five for Lori Golden became a wall of silent screams. Screams that were hidden from herself and from the world for decades. Until she could do and did the tell.
When sexual abuse occurs, you are alone with your abuser, creating a unique kind of aloneness. One that is dark and sinister. You feel hopeless in the belief that you could get better, or the pain could end. Your aloneness becomes so profound that it makes you want to self-destruct, even feel suicidal.
You should embrace your story and let your inner abused child speak out. Learn how to love your child within and dedicate yourself to achieving your own personal freedom from its bondage. You lived through the worst of it as a child and survived. You can live freely once again.
Lori Golden learned that life is possible after a decade of sexual abuse. Her story ... her recovery ... and now her work as a therapist and speaker have opened doors for thousands.
In my sexual abuse recovery I started to witness my abrupt change in mood. Still not understanding that I was triggered. I knew something occurred but not sure what. I realized I had to be patient with myself. Pushing didn't work. I only became frustrated.
My House of Lies: Awakening from a Childhood of Sexual Abuse
For the first time, I consciously witness this transition. My happy state disappears. I feel the wall come up; I feel myself far away. It’s as if I am a passenger in my own body watching, on automatic pilot, no longer driving. I am compelled to be this robotic self.