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My House of Lies: Awakening from a Childhood of Sexual Abuse Kindle Edition

by Lori Golden (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.6 4.6 out of 5 stars 30 ratings
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The nightly terror is real. And so are the words...

Shhhh ... this is our little secret ... don t tell anyone.

On the outside, Lori Golden had a perfect childhood. A perfect family. A perfect upbringing. What Lori really had was a perfect house of lies. To the outside ... and within the confines of the walls.

The sexual abuse that started at the age of five for Lori Golden became a wall of silent screams. Screams that were hidden from herself and from the world for decades. Until she could do and did the tell.

Her father was the ape in her nightmares, hidden under the stairwell, lurking in the hallway, shadowing her as darkness came in the night.

When sexual abuse occurs, you are alone with your abuser, creating a unique kind of aloneness. One that is dark and sinister. You feel hopeless in the belief that you could get better, or the pain could end. Your aloneness becomes so profound that it makes you want to self-destruct, even feel suicidal.

In her gritty and horrific story, she reveals In My House of Lies that ...

Telling is the first step in healing. If you do not, you continue to live in silence, alone, with your abuser.

Getting help is essential. You cannot do this alone.

Recovery is painful and hard. But without it, you live in its effects, symptoms that are not your DNA, as she once thought, but the person in hiding.

Sexual abuse has long tentacles. Know that it is not in the past but alive in the present, permeating all aspects of your life.

You should embrace your story and let your inner abused child speak out. Learn how to love your child within and dedicate yourself to achieving your own personal freedom from its bondage. You lived through the worst of it as a child and survived. You can live freely once again.

Lori Golden learned that life is possible after a decade of sexual abuse. Her story ... her recovery ... and now her work as a therapist and speaker has opened doors for thousands.

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About the Author

Therapist and Licensed Clinical Social Worker Lori Golden tells the story of how she was sexually violated by her well-liked father, a successful businessman who headed Landmark Dress Company in New York. Lori had the perfect childhood. A childhood that was masked in a house of lies all an illusion. It wasn t until she was in her late 30s that she was able to say, I am an incest survivor.

Her work has opened the doors for sexual abuse survivors many speaking up and out for the first time. Sometimes to spouses; sometimes to their children; sometimes to their families; sometimes to their friends; and, sometimes to others in their communities.

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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B07T4JYCGR
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Lori S Golden; 1st edition (July 1, 2019)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ July 1, 2019
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 7294 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Sticky notes ‏ : ‎ On Kindle Scribe
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 200 pages
  • Customer Reviews:
    4.6 4.6 out of 5 stars 30 ratings

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Madelyn
5.0 out of 5 stars Powerful and Incredibly Disturbing
Reviewed in the United States on August 5, 2019
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How can a child be sexually abused right in her own home where she should be safe? Tragically as a health professional who has worked with both adult and child survivors of sexual abuse it happens all of the time. Truth be told someone, usually another adult does know but does not intervene. The health consequences are life long but as the author, Lori Golden shows us there is hope for a healthy future. She brings us on her journey from believing she must be "crazy", through the horror of acknowledging the truth and the slow but steady journey of recovery. A must read for survivors or those who work with survivors. It will take courage but as Lori tells us survivors can find health and happiness.
Madelyn, Registered Nurse, Nursing Faculty
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DRSmith
5.0 out of 5 stars An insightful, powerful, and hope-filled story!
Reviewed in the United States on August 28, 2019
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A must read for anyone who has survived childhood sexual abuse. Lori's insight into how this abuse continued to plague her as an adult not only resonated with me, but also shed light on areas of my life that are still haunted by my own abuse. The constant need to check that doors are locked at night, the anxiety filled trips to the store if I am alone, and the persistent second guessing myself all rang true as I read on. There was definite relief in knowing that I am not alone and that recovery is an on-going, life-long journey.
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JC
5.0 out of 5 stars Honest, Moving, Inspiring
Reviewed in the United States on January 8, 2020
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Written with an honesty that makes you feel like you're sitting across from the author as she tells her story. It is a story of self-discovery and survival. This book looks deeply at the despair and dysfunction of abuse, but does so hand-in-hand with the hope and inspiration of recovery. This is highly recommended to anyone with a dysfunctional childhood, and anyone who is motivated to recover. I was left with hope.
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Susan G. Buchanan
5.0 out of 5 stars This is about survival.
Reviewed in the United States on May 21, 2020
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Be prepared to feel some feelings!
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Robert A. Elliott
5.0 out of 5 stars Compelling Book!
Reviewed in the United States on November 15, 2019
“My House of Lies” by Lori Golden is a compelling book; once I started to read I could not put the book aside until I finished the last page. The author is a licensed therapist, and she writes a riveting personal account of her “awakening to a childhood of sexual abuse”.
The narrative begins with her life working as a psychotherapist in New York, and actively filling her free time, by training hard to run a marathon, increasing her biking laps around Central Park, and strengthening her swimming skills working with a coach. She is plagued by a sense of restlessness and anxiety, with a nagging belief that something was wrong with her, deep inside. It was the 1980’s, when sleeping pills were regularly prescribed to quell these feelings at night, and Valium helped her face the morning light.
A trip to San Diego to visit her mother inspires Lori to relocate there to enjoy year around sunny days. She easily joins a group practice with weekdays focused on her work. She increased her exercise efforts but still had difficulty falling asleep, so with her doctor’s okay, she increased her pill intake. The move had not changed her anxiety and moods at night, feeling alone and worthless. She tried to decrease her sleeping pills and became more and more discouraged when she failed. She was a trained therapist and knew she was losing her will to live. Suicidal thoughts crowded her mind. One night she flushed her pills in the toilet and collapsed on the floor in sobs. She knew she needed help and reached out to the apartment complex manager, who had shared she was active in a 12 Step Recovery program. The friend dialed Narcotics Anonymous and handed her the phone. She heard “I know how hard it must be for you to make this call.” He told her where she could attend a meeting. Writing the address down, her manager told her she would take her to the meeting the next morning. Lori immediately fell asleep on her friend’s couch. Slowly, over a seven-year period, the healing begins as Lori recognizes how her dissociation amnesia helped her survive the trauma of her abuse. Her protective brain had walled off memories of sexual assaults by her father, starting at age five and continuing until she was sixteen. In treatment, the memories came back in form of flashbacks which were painful and terrifying. Finally, she knew her imagined hairy ape and the man with a knife that tormented her as a child and a teen was her father.
Lori’s belief that she had an idyllic childhood no longer existed. During this journey of healing, Lori reached out to her childhood elementary school where she had completed sixth grade, asking for records from her attendance there. When the paperwork arrived, she was surprised she had exhibited a special talent for music and art. Following this revelation, Lori enrolled in a drawing class and was amazed by her ability. She continued to develop her artistic talents with painting, writing, and learning to play piano and the sitar. Strengthening her creativity was a valuable part of her healing process.
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Mary Knight, MSW
5.0 out of 5 stars Insightful and well written
Reviewed in the United States on February 15, 2023
I affirm my fellow child abuse survivor Lori Golden in her telling of her experiences. I found it interesting that, like me, she was able to help her clients as a social worker before she was able to fully help herself.
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Brandon
5.0 out of 5 stars A true story in overcoming, healing, and never giving up
Reviewed in the United States on January 14, 2020
Lori's story is inspiring for anyone who has been through trauma or severe tragedy. She structures her story in a way that allows the reader time to get to know her and understand all the confusion and pain she felt at the beginning of her recovery, so I truly understood where she was coming from throughout her journey.
She describes disassociation, hyper-vigilance, and other PTS and trauma-related experience in ways that ACTUALLY made sense to my experience, totally different from the intellectual explanations found in Psych textbooks and other books. I understood my own experience better due to how Lori tells her story, even though my personal experience with trauma is different than hers. She's straightforward, honest, and clearly has done so much work to get through to the other side. The tone of the tale is never bleak and even at the worst moments there is always hope and a determination to live better. She provides hope for all of us in recovery that yes YOU can heal, forgive, and move on, one day at a time. Will recommend to anyone else I meet in recovery, not just from childhood abuse, but any form or recovery.
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