The nightly terror is real. And so are the words...
Shhhh ... this is our little secret ... don t tell anyone.
On the outside, Lori Golden had a perfect childhood. A perfect family. A perfect upbringing. What Lori really had was a perfect house of lies. To the outside ... and within the confines of the walls.
The sexual abuse that started at the age of five for Lori Golden became a wall of silent screams. Screams that were hidden from herself and from the world for decades. Until she could do and did the tell.
When sexual abuse occurs, you are alone with your abuser, creating a unique kind of aloneness. One that is dark and sinister. You feel hopeless in the belief that you could get better, or the pain could end. Your aloneness becomes so profound that it makes you want to self-destruct, even feel suicidal.
You should embrace your story and let your inner abused child speak out. Learn how to love your child within and dedicate yourself to achieving your own personal freedom from its bondage. You lived through the worst of it as a child and survived. You can live freely once again.
Lori Golden learned that life is possible after a decade of sexual abuse. Her story ... her recovery ... and now her work as a therapist and speaker has opened doors for thousands.
Being a survivor of incest created a separation with my mother. My father told me how jealous she would be to know he was giving me "special attention". Around her I felt shame when she recognized any of my accomplishments. I always downplayed them and adopted the belief "it's no big deal". So much so that I could never appreciate anything I did. Therefore I "hated" compliments.
My House of Lies: Awakening from a Childhood of Sexual Abuse
According to Daddy, I was “more special” than Mom, so when she praised me, I downplayed it. I believed she felt his sexualized feelings toward me because her compliments were followed by a statement of how much better I was at something than her. I always felt she was in competition with me and jealous of me.