The nightly terror is real. And so are the words...
Shhhh ... this is our little secret ... don t tell anyone.
On the outside, Lori Golden had a perfect childhood. A perfect family. A perfect upbringing. What Lori really had was a perfect house of lies. To the outside ... and within the confines of the walls.
The sexual abuse that started at the age of five for Lori Golden became a wall of silent screams. Screams that were hidden from herself and from the world for decades. Until she could do and did the tell.
When sexual abuse occurs, you are alone with your abuser, creating a unique kind of aloneness. One that is dark and sinister. You feel hopeless in the belief that you could get better, or the pain could end. Your aloneness becomes so profound that it makes you want to self-destruct, even feel suicidal.
You should embrace your story and let your inner abused child speak out. Learn how to love your child within and dedicate yourself to achieving your own personal freedom from its bondage. You lived through the worst of it as a child and survived. You can live freely once again.
Lori Golden learned that life is possible after a decade of sexual abuse. Her story ... her recovery ... and now her work as a therapist and speaker has opened doors for thousands.
I only knew to implode with self blame. I had to learn to rage outwardly and not direct it at myself. I was tired of self blame.
My House of Lies: Awakening from a Childhood of Sexual Abuse
Was it my fault somehow? Why do I feel rage at myself for being abused as if I was my abuser? This back-and-forth rage to self-blame lasted for some time. Instead of exploding, I imploded and blamed myself. I was disgusting; I was dirty. I was ashamed and too frightened to rage at my father. Raging at myself through self-abuse became second nature.