The journey of becoming a mother takes a different path for every woman. In this book, M. B. Antevasin walks the road of a modern-day pioneer as she forges her own way through the perils of the American birth culture. As a firm believer in natural birth, she is shocked to find herself another victim of the medical system. To make sense of her traumatic birth, she is forced to reexamine her entire life and the circumstances that brought her to this point. This memoir verbalizes the spiritual and physical transformation of a victim into a woman with her own power and her own voice. M.B. Antevasin lives at the intersection between science and spirituality, incorporating what she has learned from both to live authentically and bring more love, joy and healing to the world.
MB Antevasin opened the book with this story because she wanted to show the point that we carry our birth stories with us throughout our entire lives, often without realizing or appreciating the full impact of childbirth on our mental and emotional well-being, and even physical well-being.
The Birth of Magdalena
Here I am, sitting at the kitchen table talking with my grandmother with the sun shining through the big picture window, and all of the beautiful birds flocking to the birdfeeders out back. Grandma is angry. I have heard this birth story countless times, and despite being over six decades later, the disappointment and hurt is still palpable. We have all these sayings about how the birth of a baby is the happiest moment in your life, but that is reserved for small talk. In reality, birth is powerful and scary and hard. Overcoming our fears and finding our strength helps us to become mothers, and birth can be beautiful, inspiring, empowering, and joyful. But all too often it is stripped of that, and we are left with something much less. Our power is taken from us. Like my grandmother’s birth story, the violations and the traumas go unacknowledged and thus are carried with us because we are not given the opportunity to heal.