The journey of becoming a mother takes a different path for every woman. In this book, M. B. Antevasin walks the road of a modern-day pioneer as she forges her own way through the perils of the American birth culture. As a firm believer in natural birth, she is shocked to find herself another victim of the medical system. To make sense of her traumatic birth, she is forced to reexamine her entire life and the circumstances that brought her to this point. This memoir verbalizes the spiritual and physical transformation of a victim into a woman with her own power and her own voice. M.B. Antevasin lives at the intersection between science and spirituality, incorporating what she has learned from both to live authentically and bring more love, joy and healing to the world.
You don't have to stay in pain...
We can escape the secrets and the lies that have shaped our past...
I wrote this book for mothers, women who want to heal, women who are survivors of incest and rape and childhood sexual abuse, and healers who work with All of the above.
The Birth of Magdalena
But even when your life is full of so much goodness, one dark secret can be like letting a single drop of ink fall into your glass of sparkling water, and soon your whole world turns black. It can become hard to remember your blessings when it seems like there is a darkness staining your whole story. Even my happy memories seem to have this undercurrent of shame. If only I had known then that my soul could be washed clean, that the dark sediment would settle to the bottom where the sludge could be removed and I could pour off the clean water and start again. I wish someone had told me sooner that it was possible to heal. And I’m sure that so many people tried along the way, but I just couldn’t hear them at the time. I wish that I had realized that I was never meant to carry it alone. But those were all lessons that would come with time. And in the meantime, I was just a little girl, trying to find my way in the world.