A prejudiced war veteran battling PTSD returns home to pursue his dream of becoming a police officer. But is he ready?
Crooked Fences is a fiercely honest story of change about a returning war veteran’s battle to overcome the debilitating effects of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and depression, before entering the New York State Police Academy. First, he must confront the hatred of racism and homophobia instilled in him by his father while working at a low-income housing project.
C.J. Heigelmann is a writer and multi-genre novelist of Contemporary, Literary, and Historical fiction. He fluently expresses his work with a primary focus on perspective and realism which separates him from many mainstream contemporary authors. Heigelmann's style of writing is marked by cultural inclusion and social diversity resulting in relevant, unique, and compelling fiction novels.
There are times in our lives when external forces, people, obstacles or events can create environments of unpredictability, negativity or stress. These factors can exacerbate the conditions of those suffering from PTSD, anxiety, and depression, as they are forced to confront each situation.
Avoidance, deception, and redirection are a few paths that many choose to travel while coping with their conditions, which summarily end in the stagnation of their personal growth, causing resentment and ultimately encourages low self-esteem. Like a circular argument, no progress is gained.
The foundation of healing and positive personal change is found within honesty. Being honest with one's self is difficult, but it is paramount before one can be honest with others. To end all doubt, one must first find truth through personal empirical honesty of self. Own it, and lay a perfect foundation for the future.
Would I be in two arguments in one day with the people I loved and cared for? The entire day felt surreal as the unpredictability of events continued to mount, building an internal pressure within my very soul. I was battling anxiety on a new level and found myself with the only weapon I now had command of; honesty. Being honest to myself and others in my life was my foundation and I was determined to hold on to it. It was all that was left inside of me.