Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
"You saw me before I was born. The days allotted to me had all been recorded in Your book before any of them ever began." Psalm 139:16
Shortly after Bob's death, God used Psalm 139:16 powerfully in my life. This verse had the power to remove all the guilt I carried about what I should or shouldn't have done to prevent Bob from taking his life. This verse gave me much needed comfort and peace to know there was nothing I could do. Psalm 139:16 was pivotal to my healing and was a huge step toward my acceptance of God's will for my live moving forward. I was shocked by my husband's death, but God was not. God already knew that my husband would choose to end his life on that Wednesday morning in the summer of 2013. Everything that I had known changed the day Bob took his life, and it would NEVER be the same again. Day after day bombarded into my painful existence. I wanted help from the only ONE who could give it.
God is Enough
It felt as if I were standing in the middle of a merry-go-round with life circling continuously around me. I was wandering in a fog with no direction. NOTHING had prepared me for THIS.