Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
It has been eight years since my husband's death. The journey has been long, sad and lonely. At this point, the pain is not as deep and the loneliness is tolerable. The greatest part is that he now resides in Heaven!
I am jealous! I can only imagine what Heaven is like. Upon my death, I will have my husband as a tour guide. He can show me all kinds of things heavenly. That is more than my brain can handle! Every day I live, I am getting closer to going to Heaven. That certainly changes my perspective daily!!!
God is Enough
One of the hardest parts of trusting God has been reconciling the fact that God had the power to stop Bob from committing suicide, but He chose not to do so. Hebrews 5:7-8 has helped me as I wrestle with this. In these verses I see the fully human, fully God facing the cross and crying out to the Father, who has the power to make another way, but chooses not to do so. I see Jesus submit to God’s plan, a plan that included suffering and death. Jesus wrestled with God’s plan to redeem the world through His death on the cross. It helps because I, too, have struggled with God’s plan for my life.