Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
I concluded that a loving God choose not to stop the suicide. I don't know why. What I do know is that God knows everything, including the day each of us will die. "You saw me before I was born. The days allotted to me had all been recorded in Your book before any of them ever began." (Psalm 139:16). Shortly after Bob's death, God used Psalm 139:16 powerfully in my life. This verse had the power to remove all the guilt I carried about what I should or shouldn't have done to prevent Bob from taking his life. This verse gave me much needed comfort and peace to know there was nothing I could do. Psalm 139:16 was pivotal to my healing and was a huge step toward my acceptance of God's will for my life moving forward. I was shocked by my husband's death, but God was not.
God is Enough
When God began prompting me to start writing a book, I thought, You have got the wrong person. I don’t know how to write a book! This was quickly followed bywhatamI saying? I just told the One who made me what I could and couldn’t do! Talk about odds… God must like it when the odds are an overwhelming long shot! As was the case with Gideon, I am the instrument God has used to write this book and He will use it for His purpose. On this long and painful journey, I have found one overarching truth: God is enough. I have something in common with Gideon. I know that God is the hero of my story, too.