God is Enough

Difficult Conversations

Over a two and one half month period we had several difficult conversations. One of them was initiated by my husband while we were relaxing on our screened porch. He began, "Have you ever been really depressed and thought about suicide?" I responded, "Yes" and described the situation that had brought about my depression. My plan was to drive my car into a lake on my way home from work. Bob asked, "What kept you from doing it?" "You did. I knew what it would do to you." His response, "Then you know how I am feeling." I shook my head yes and then added, "Do you have a plan?" "No I am to chicken to do something like that. Plus, if I committed suicide, you would not receive the money from the life insurance policy." I remember thinking to myself, "I hate that we are even having this conversation but at least he has given two reasons for not taking his life."