Where do you go when life as you know it is turned completely upside down? It happened to me. The life I knew and loved vanished on August 7, 2013 when my college sweetheart and husband of 33 years chose to end his life. There are not words to describe my shock and devastation. Though I was surrounded with wonderful, loving people, none of them could restore the half of me that died that day. This was a God-sized task! This is my journey through shock, grief, mourning and healing. It is the very personal and profound journey I took to ultimately discover that no matter how deep your pain…God is always there and He is enough. If you are grieving, God Is Enough will give you hope. I understand what you are going through, and I am here to share my message of hope, healing and faith.
M.E. Louis is a native of North Carolina. She grew up in Chapel Hill where she attended the University of North Carolina and met the love of her life, Tate, who became a pastor. After 33 years of marriage, Tate took his life on August 7, 2013. God is Enough is her story of hope, healing and faith.
The biblical counselor shared a powerful scripture verse with me. It can be found in Psalm 139:16. This verse states, "You saw me before I was born. The days allotted to me had all been recorded in Your book before any of them ever began." (Psalm 139:16 GNT). This verse had the power to remove all of my guilt.Not only does it say that God knew Bob before he was born, but all his days had been recorded in Your book before any of them ever began. Psalm 139:16 was pivotal to my healing. This verse gave me much needed comfort and peace to know there was NOTHING I could do. God already knew that my husband would choose to end his life.
God is Enough
I concluded that a loving God chose not to stop the suicide. I don’t know why. What I do know is that God knows everything, including the day each of us will die.