The Quantum Life

This spiritual journey to the foothills of the Himalayas felt hauntingly familiar. I couldn’t help feel I had been here before. I pondered on these majestic mountains and the many seekers of truth who come from all over the world to pray and meditate and how they forged a connection with my life. An overwhelming tide of emotions surged within me. I wondered what historical nexus and node I fitted into. What is my connection between these majestic mountains and my soul? Everything seemed illuminated. I was seized with the feeling of extraordinary experience knowing that this is the heart and soul of the top of the world – the majestic Himalayan mountains – the mystical Himalayas as the locals call it. During those weeks in India, I lived in a strange and shifting rhythm and in an utterly transformed state.

Everything around me seemed enchanted. I kept reciting the Buddha’s Bhaddakaratta Sutra, “Do not pursue the past. Do not lose yourself in the future. Looking deeply at life as it is in this very moment, the meditator dwells in stability and freedom!” This moment matters.

While in India, one of my hosts, a former lieutenant in the Army of India, took me to chat with a spiritual Master. The spiritual Master informed me very quickly in our conversation that during this life time “you will experience self-realization.” Rudely I laughed out loud asserting, “You must have me confused with someone else. I have so much work to do!” He continued to shake his head from side to side which for Indians means “yes” and I kept laughing and protesting. In 1997 I had not yet evolved into the understanding of self-realization. But now I know it to mean that in comparison to the bliss of the perennial knowledge that we acquire, everything appears and feels worthless compared to it. Self-realization is the absence of ignorance. It is about realizing the soul. I have stopped laughing as I have learned what I am not. I feel full. I need nothing.

I have spent a lifetime in search of my spiritual self which became displaced in my unconscious as social convention, psychological theoretical assumptions through fourteen years of academic training, and cultural language stripped my spirit. In this search, I learned to move from the old structures into a new paradigm with the primary authoritative guidance coming from my own voice. I learned slowly that I either drink from my own “spiritual well” or die! Since then I have passed through many struggles in attaining a certain balance in the equation of my life’s purpose, and, of course, my life’s objectives. Every “struggle” has moved me toward Spirit.

You can find Spirit in the world of everyday activities as readily as anywhere else. Let every movement carry you Godward. In the ordinary is where you will meet the sacred. It is the ordinary that will peak your states of consciousness, expand your awareness and become a powerful force for social change. Desire to learn to use your ordinary experiences and your difficulties to befriend spirit, and awaken heart – then have a passion to plumb to your soul’s full extent - - right now! Life rushes onward like a roaring stream and drowns our thoughts in its noise. However, these unforgettable moments have marked themselves in golden pen upon the calendar of my years!

In Silent communication you can transcend the three-dimensional world of every day experience and realize a higher dimensional reality. There is absolutely nothing that a mirror could ever do to attract the sun but, in its stillness, and brightness, the sun attracts and nourishes everything. A highly spiritual colleague of mine said to me directly one time, “You are like the sun, Teri. All you have to do is merely appear and be there. Some people are nourished by the sun and some people are burned by the sun because they are not prepared to receive its nourishment. But it is not the fault of the sun.” It is also your choice what you achieve out of your utter stillness. Through it you can prepare your mind to connect with the Divine, the Light will shine brightly within you, and you will dissolve all boundaries. In Silence you have the opportunity to break through the barriers that keep you chained to your old world of conditioning if you abandon your self to your Self.

How do you access your inner life? By moving inward gradually rather than living on the surface of life. Inner silence guides, illumines and directs you. In this silence is where you will release all negative emotions that clog up your heart and your cells. In this silence you will begin to loosen any crystallized emotions that have imbalanced your organs, your muscles and your tissues. Inward is where you will find your subtle self which is in constant communication with Consciousness. This will help you to widen the limits of your physical self and will begin your ascent. You will begin to feel expanded and eventually you will merge fully with Infinite Intelligence. You will become luminous as your body recalibrates with every movement of consciousness. This will be the making of your spiritual transformation. This is where you will find truth rather than falsehoods. Your healing process must begin at the spiritual level and through meditation you will be inspired from within. You will find your own way intuitively rather than relying on the opinions of others. Then you will move into service through action inspired by dynamic inner silence. Meditation will take you into the deepest levels of your Consciousness and aid you in manifesting your divine Source. There is nothing beyond Consciousness. All is within you. There is only you. Your Inner Self will guide you.