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Blue Evergarden
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Diaries of a Borderline
Literature & Fiction
Author Insight
Hope Keeps Finding Her Anyway
Hope entering her bones doesn't mean she suddenly knows how to live. That mattered to me. She can imagine another life. She can taste it in her daydreams. She can even feel hope moving through her body, and still be pulled backward by grief until time itself becomes difficult to hold. I didn't want hope in Diaries of a Borderline to erase what happened to her. I wanted it to exist beside it. Because some of us learn hope while we're still grieving. We begin wanting a future before we've figured out how to stop living inside the past. We reach toward something beautiful with hands that still remember everything they lost. And that doesn't make the reaching less real. This is one of the places where the girl inside Diaries of a Borderline begins carrying two truths at once: she is haunted by what she cannot return to, and some stubborn part of her still wants a life beyond it. Sometimes that tiny contradiction is where becoming begins. Diaries of a Borderline 2026 Readers' Favorite Silver Medal Winner — Poetry — Inspirational. Reached #1 in Disability Poetry in the Kindle Store.
Book Excerpt
Diaries of a Borderline
Sometimes life fills her bones with hope.
Then she’s disappointed because where there is light, there is always shadow. But where there is shadow, not always is there light.
Hope requires faith, and she doesn’t believe in silly fairy tales anymore.
She’s lost in daydreams, daring to taste the life she prays for.
Never again.
No closure comes from communing with the dead.
She doesn’t know how to live.
Even time falls away from her.
She never knows what year she’s in.
Can’t you see it in her smile
the lies . . .
It’s okay.
She’s fine.
She’s used their scorn.
Their “I love you” weighs her down with guilt.
She doesn’t know what “I love you” means.
She’s damned by the light.
She’s lost in her head, imagining a life where Mother lived.
Where her sister survived.
What is she supposed to do now?
She keeps asking the stars staining the sky.
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