Blue Evergarden’s Diaries of a Borderline offers an intimate and transformative poetic journey, following a single protagonist’s quest for self-love and healing. Artfully divided into four parts, each section vividly portrays a tumultuous emotional odyssey.
Part 1, Diaries of a Borderline, centers on unraveling the aftermath of trauma. Chronicling the protagonist’s struggle with dissociation, loneliness, and the elusive pursuit of reclaiming a shattered identity.
Delving deeper in Part 2, This is Why She Falls Apart, Evergarden explores the delicate tapestry of self-worth and self-love, tracing the complicated journey of survival and reliance amidst inner turmoil and despair.
Entering a transformative phase in Part 3, Leaving Her Graveyard, the protagonist awakens to the potential of becoming everything she once believed she wasn’t, finding the resilience to confront her inner demons and emerge stronger.
Part 4, The Gifts She Found, celebrates the protagonist’s triumphant emergence into self-acceptance and inner tranquility. This final section encapsulates the euphoria of releasing past burdens, discovering self-love, and embracing the promise of a brighter future.
Diaries of a Borderline is a poignant, soul-stirring journey through the complexities of mental health and the transformative power of healing. With vivid prose and raw emotion, Evergarden weaves a tapestry of hope and resilience, inspiring those who tread similar paths.
Blue Evergarden is an evocative poet whose work explores the depths of mental health, resilience, and transformation. As the author of Diaries of a Borderline, Blue’s raw, unfiltered voice offers a poignant glimpse into the struggles of living with borderline personality disorder and the triumphant journey toward self-love. With a mastery of language that blends emotional intensity with vivid imagery, Blue invites readers to embrace the complexities of their inner worlds and find solace in their shared humanity.
Blue’s poetry is a beacon of hope for those navigating trauma, grief, and healing, inspiring readers to reclaim their narratives and rewrite their stories with compassion and courage. Residing in Southern California, Blue combines their literary craft with a background in de-escalation training, specializing in verbal and physical self-defense.
Through their writing and community engagement, Blue is dedicated to fostering understanding and empathy for those living with mental health challenges. Follow their journey and discover the transformative power of vulnerability, connection, and light.
When I wrote this line, I wasn’t thinking about gods or prophecy.
I was thinking about the small, trembling part of me that once believed she was easier to lose than to love.
I know the feeling of being the last person you learn how to care for.
For most of my life, I treated myself like a shadow someone else cast.
Grief taught me to disappear before the world could ask me to.
But eventually even the ghost of me grew tired.
tired of haunting my own heartbeat, tired of calling collapse a kind of prayer.
No one teaches you that surviving yourself becomes its own kind of motherhood.
Mothering myself didn’t start with gentleness.
It started with exhaustion.
With asking,
“What if I stayed a little longer than the pain expected?”
In the Evergarden, Destiny and Fate aren’t authorities.
They’re witnesses — standing at the edge of my ribs, hoping I’ll choose to nurture the child inside me who still believes in warmth.
And maybe that’s all self-mothering really is:
letting the wound breathe without calling it failure.
letting the younger version of you rest in your hands without apologizing for her weight.
letting softness interrupt the ancient urge to vanish.
If this feels like a page from your own ribs… there is more where this came from.
Maybe you’re the one Destiny and Fate have been whispering about too.
I do hope so.
Book Excerpt
Diaries of a Borderline
Destiny asks,
“Do you think she will mother herself how she needed?”
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